So. I sort of accidentally won this ebay auction. Because I'd lost the other ones, so I thought I'd lose this one. And at $24 + shipping of like $7, what a steal!
Um, and I think I really really like this one. My bust fits (finally!) but damn, that waist is *tiny!* So, we're working on that, because...
Um I think this is the perfect church/convalidation ceremony dress. I know, I know, there's that pesky question of how I really feel about the church. And I'm trying to work on that. Because, we're not as close as we used to be. And... I mean, I maintained my faith and devotion all through college. But... for some other reasons I'd rather not go into here, I've... been doing some avoidance. I say it's because I haven't found a Home -- like, college was Home, St. Mary's was incredible.
And my dad has pointed out that, growing up, he & my mom took us to a church about a 25 minute drive away. That's pretty long, considering another Catholic church was right down the road from us. So, maybe I just need to try a little harder to find my new Home.
And... I've recently worked out with a friend... I mean, it's not like I'm holding Him responsible for this event that happened. Although... maybe I am. But there's nothing... not like prayer won't help, but I know there's only so much He can do. I could go into, "Yes, through Him, all things are possible," but ... I know He gives us free will, so He is limited, to an extent.
Anyway. Not to give myself a deadline. But wouldn't it be lovely to be able to get married in the church on, well, a nice round number :)? Like, oh, five years of marriage? And I know I shouldn't -- and I know I don't want to -- just get married in the church so I can have another wedding. Because, not like I don't think I've already committed myself to the Hubs forever, but in the Church -- I mean, that's not law, you know? That's not just legal stuff, made by man. And nor are our feelings, and I don't mean to put anyone's civil ceremonies down, or anything like that. But you involve God -- it shouldn't just be an excuse to throw a party, you know? You're inviting Him in, and I'm sure it might amuse Him to see all the pretties around and everything, but uh I bet He's got other things going on, right?
Anyway. But... I think I've found it. The dress, that is. Which puts me, well, one more step on solid ground, where I feel comfortable. Maybe that sounds ridiculous, but I feel like I need to get as comfortable as possible, that if I knock out all the distractions, pretty soon, I'll have nothing left but... well, my thoughts and feelings on what's causing this riff. Rift? whatevs.
Anyway, back to a lighthearted note: and I also saw this crazy crazy huge headband at Arden B.
omg, I love it. It's so crazy big + over the top. And um I think it would look *phenomenal* with that vintage, old-lady lookin dress that's so conservative yet chic to me :) But it is BIG. BUT only $24!! le sigh. I'll keep you updated, hee, if you've made it this far :D